Living in tension and the faithfulness of God

So, when I woke up this morning, I laid in bed and had a conversation with God, which is often my morning ritual, as I feel the most alert then, and if I just lay in bed and talk with him it's easier for me to focus; I don't get distracted by all the other things I see that I need to get done around the house.
I wasn't complaining to Him, or arguing with Him, rather processing the tension I have found myself living in the last couple of weeks. It had to do with finances. I don't go through this process with a self-pity, "poor us" kind of attitude, I think I just have to re-evaluate every once in a while...sort of a check-in to see where my heart is really at....is it to have "things" or to do what God is asking of our family? I think God often uses money to get at my heart. I don't write this to evoke pity out of others either...rather as a testimony of His faithfulness...as you will see at the end here. You see, as a result of choosing to work with YWAM, we have also chosen to live a life that is free of a lot of luxuries that are so enjoyable :) Not being able to have a regular, consistent paycheck can be difficult in some aspects. Every once in awhile I find myself wishing we had a bit more wiggle room in our budget for things like going on a date with my oh so amazing husband, taking the boys to see a new movie, not having to wait to buy a new dress until it hopefully goes on 75% off clearance, or maybe someday going on a real family vacation; things that are easy enough to go without, but also fun to enjoy when possible :) At the end of this processing time, I always come to the conclusion that it's ALWAYS been worth the sacrifice to be able to do what we do. I LOVE my job...money is not worth the trade-off to us. Seeing lives transformed as people get to know who our God is...seeing His Truth bring freedom and the reality of forgiveness bring deliverance in the lives of young people is worth the sacrifice of these so called luxuries. God always brings peace to my heart when I worry about money by reminding me of what it is we are doing, and how much it brings life to us. Anyways...at the end of this conversation, I just threw in, "And God...I really want an espresso machine that makes good espresso someday." Got up, and went about my morning.
Our neighbor was having a garage sale, so Zac and I wandered over to see if they had anything interesting for sale. After browsing around for a bit, we spot a "Starbucks Barista" espresso machine. The tag said "$10 As is...broken, but may be fixable" (they retail for $300+) After talking with my friend, she said, why don't you just get it, and if you can't fix it, I'll give you your money back. So we put the machine and all the accessories in a box and walk home. Zac immediately went to work on it, and within a couple of hours we had a working espresso machine! I nearly wept because of the faithfulness of God. I felt like He was saying, "Don't worry...I got your back...I know what you want, and I want to give it to you...even though you feel poor as dirt sometimes, I own the cattle on a thousand hills, and I love you." I'd rather have a story like that, then be able to go buy a brand new machine at the store with cash. His faithfulness never ceases to amaze me, and his love never grows old. I also love having a husband who can fix or build nearly anything :)
I hope this story is encouraging:) Here's a pic of my new machine...pulling the first of many shots to come :)